W0rk Rev1ew

Met VP for W0rk Rev1ew last morning, used to call him Big Arm wif Y... It was a good session, but it came too late, he is leaving soon... why only when he is leaving, that he realized so many things, that i felt he can do sth good for mi if he continue to stay?

He finally understood my work and responsiblities, and my attitude towards work. And again he asked mi if i am happier this year, b4 i answer, he said he knew i will say no, but he still think i am happier this year as compared to last year. He said he feel happier for mi this year (though i dun really understand y)

He read thru my appraisal report, he really read every single word, n i see those lines he highlighted, and few notepad he pasted on wif some notes. First thing he told mi, was that my report is easy to read, much more easier to read as compared to those others that he read, he doesnt have difficulty to understand... while i was thinking if thats becoz of my powDerful EnglAnd, he told mi thats a compliment, not saying my language is weak. He said i am very clear abt whats target and whats role, some colleagues juz dumped everythg n mix everythg. He also commented on the clarity in the report, think is straight forward n direct, no flowerly words maybe. But he did tell mi certain use of words werent so suitable. ya i know thats sth i shd change.

He told mi a lot of good pts he or some ppl find in mi, n he thinks i am more confident in myself this year. He wants mi to do more, n has belief in mi... He told mi i have the capacity, believe that i can grow... after working wif mi for two years, after observing my work attitude, after seeing how i get things done, even if thats not my job... but, i juz felt, its too late, i m glad tt u finally realize my workload is so heavy, i m glad tt u finally recognize my effort n hardwork, i m glad that u finally hav very strong belief in mi... but... its too late, u r leaving....

Is it bcoz u r leaving, that u r able to put forward many nice words to mi? but i really appreciate the session, appreciate whatever u shared wif mi behind the closed-door, those are really very encouraging. This is the first time in five years i enjoy w0rk rev1ew, first time in five years i felt my hardwork paid off, it is not abt $, it is not abt PB, and it is not abt post, it is the recognition from the heart, and esp from someone who always able to find others' flaws.

And i thank u for teaching mi how to handle difficult ppl. At least i know theres at least you who think things are so unfair to mi, at least i know theres someone who disagrees to the decision made during the meeting, someone who thinks certain work shdnt be delegated to mi... i really hope one day, i can handle those ppl, i know wat u mean, i will learn thru observation, and one day, i will know how to protect myself, i will know how not to always be the receiving ends of mountain high of work.

I will manage my fear, it wont be too long.

I really feel u change so much, from the first day u join this service. I guess there must be lot of painful moments for you, to learn, to be confronted, and finally come to this day. Wish you all the best, my VP.